Conquest

god should have made girls lethal when he made monsters of men – Elisabeth Hewer Conquest. Let’s talk about conquest Yes, let’s hold an inquest to try and work out why love is so scarce and sex so messed up It’s like some friendship evangelism with friendly interest to make a convert to the illusory…

Misunderstood

As I mentioned in my last post, writing is a sort of healing and discovery process for me. What I write does not relate to any specific person or situation. More often than not, it is an attempt to express the feeling or meaning of many experiences and observations. We all experience life through different…

Unravelled

For me, writing is a form of healing. It is a way of figuring things out, of trying to capture the feeling of something that is hard to explain. What I write does not necessarily relate to specific events or people, but rather to patterns of life, discoveries and explorations of feeling and meaning. For…

Keep moving forward

Recently I ran my third marathon. It was the inaugural ABP Newport Wales Marathon on 29 April 2018. Running has been an integral part of my process in discovering my own inner compass. So much of my life I have tried to find the right set of rules to live by and got tangled up,…

Restraint

There were things I would have said but could not so I wrote them down instead postponed for saying till later or never Someday I’d like to stay up all night and be with you Maybe read poetry together listen to music tell our stories to each other Maybe just lie on our backs awake…

Land

Does the land have a soul? you ask Well, I think it is so that the land has a soul at the very least a memory how else can it whisper of the things it has seen and heard long times ago. And this land of Wales is where I discovered it to be so…

Finding home

It’s a long, long journey to arrive at a place that can be called home. First the departure the tears and the tearing away from that place and all that it holds first known by that name. Home. a place a feeling a way of being warm, welcoming, forgiving a memory a hope a dream…

Scapegoat

This is no laughing matter, but rather more common than what most of us are ready to recognise or admit. Personally, I think it almost requires a process of enlightenment to gain awareness of this sort of thing going on around us, close to us and even to and from ourselves.  This has been the…

Unhidden

“Authenticity flows out of truthfulness and it is the only way to find acceptance. From the place of acceptance of what is real/true, transformation can take place, spiritual growth is possible. Without this, the willingness to be truthful, pretense becomes the only alternative.” from the Alchemy of Voice by Stewart Pearce (I think) So if…

Journey

Over the course of the last few years, I have become content. This happened gradually. It happened as a result of introducing new habits into my life. I have also become full of curiosity, wanting to learn and discover new things. I do not view my life as a problem to be solved anymore, but…

Expansion

I’ve been looking for space more space inner space outer space living space breathing space not exactly astronaut space just more place to move and breathe and have my being space to discover me without judgement without criticism without rejection ouch! that awful word and feeling that made the me withdraw masks and pretense is…

Earth

Not all of us run, but many of us do. Does it mean anything? It probably means many things. I will share a bit of what goes through my head during those long miles of solitary  (but only from a particular viewpoint) marathon training. Footfall, heartbeat breath and earth footfall, heartbeat death and birth Footfall…