Laughing again

There is agony and ecstacy in living deeply with awareness rather than hiding and lying to ourselves as we pass through our days just existing or surviving So I choose awareness questioning and risk I allow myself to question the reason and feel the emotion by which I live I consider the longings and desires buried…

Myth makers

And it was evening and it was morning, another day.  And we said, let there be love. And then we lived it, we made it so. We chose to be gods: to love and forgive, not ignorant of your humanness our shadowside, our tiredness. It’s is not by pretense that we become gods but by…

Love is not a fairy tale, it is a myth

Love is whatever we make of it. We get to define it. We have to decide it, define it, imagine it, create it, live it. If we don’t do these things, love will not exist. This is something I’ve written that kind of explains, to myself, my own perplexing journey in search of romantic love….

Rant

I recently read a book by Dr Philip Maffetone: “The Endurance Handbook”. It is a marvellous book. Whether you consider yourself an endurance athlete or not, I recommend it. If you have a body and you are alive, you are enrolled on the greatest endurance event there is. It is called life and life can…

Blissful surrender

We can try to make sense of our own path in life from many different perspectives. We are complex beings who live complex lives interwoven with each other’s and the other life forms all around us. Who can understand or make sense of it all? I think it is a worthwhile pursuit for each and…

Surrender

Learning to let go can take a lifetime, maybe more. Learning to flow with life and it’s rhythms can take a lifetime, maybe more. Learning to make magic out of what can so easily become mundane can take years. Life is difficult and marvellous, full of frustration and paradoxes. There are also moments of bliss…

Unicorns and all such things

Shame will snuff out the sparkle and let the magic of miracle making energy disappear replacing the possibility of love with fear So watch out and wash out the things that bring shame the thoughts and the judgements the long held beliefs that ask you ‘”what is wrong with you?” and tells you “well, you’ve only…

Disillusion

I’ve been here silent all these years emotions and thoughts imprisoned in fear locked up with keys of guilt and shame so my heart was grey with grief so much to say to share no voice no confidence So I mostly existed disconnected dull defeated but refused to be blinded to the divinity that dwells…

I am an island. I am a new beginning.

I am a dark night sky full of mystery and sparkle I am a cloud crying tears that soak the earth I am a mountain stream carrying a future carrying dreams I am an ocean vast holding pain and sorrow and hope for tomorrow I am a tree silent, immovable yet I whisper and sway…

Keep moving forward

Recently I ran my third marathon. It was the inaugural ABP Newport Wales Marathon on 29 April 2018. Running has been an integral part of my process in discovering my own inner compass. So much of my life I have tried to find the right set of rules to live by and got tangled up,…